Health & Fitness Amanda Holden tearful as she remembers holding stillborn son after birth

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Amanda Holden fought back tears as she told how she was terrified of holding her stillborn baby.

The Britain’s Got Talent judge and her husband Chris Hughes lost their son Theo in 2011. Holden was seven months into the pregnancy when Theo died in the womb and the star had to deliver him by C-section.

Opening up about the traumatic experience on the BBC's Dear NHS Superstars programme, Holden told how she heard a “guttural” scream - and only later realised that it was her making the sound - when an obstetrician failed to find a heartbeat.

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AMANDA Holden struggled to hold back tears on today's This Morning as she recalled the moment she realised her son Theo had died. The 47-year-old, who is mum to Lexi, 12, and Hollie, six, gave birth to her stillborn son with husband Chris Hughes in 2011.

Amanda Holden choked up as she opened up about giving birth to her stillborn baby boy. The Britain’s Got Talent judge was seven months pregnant Appearing on Dear NHS Superstars, a BBC special praising NHS staff, the 49-year-old explained she went into hospital after noticing that she

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She opted to have a caesarean because she felt she could not go through a natural labour.

However, Holden, 49, said the C-section was “beyond horrific because you know that at the end a fully formed little baby with absolutely nothing wrong with him apart from being asleep is going to come out”.

"And all the way through it I said, ‘No, I can’t hold him, I can’t hold a dead baby' is what I kept saying. I was absolutely terrified,” she said.

“Just as baby was going to come out my husband Chris had to leave the room, he couldn't bear it.”

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When Theo was born, Holden’s midwife and close friend urged her to hold him.

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Amanda Holden has spoken about the pain, terror, and confusion she felt as she gave birth to her stillborn son . The Britain’s Got Talent judge said that she remembers hearing ‘this woman screaming and screaming’ before realising she was the one yelling.

Amanda Holden has candidly recalled the moment that she had to decide whether to hold her The TV personality, 47, told the Mirror that she remembers being terrified of holding him because she During the birth Amanda was joined by three midwives who she had met on her midwifery course

She said: “And that’s when I held him in my arms for the first time and realised I was still a mummy, even though he was fast asleep.”

After losing her son, Holden set up a fund called Theo’s Hope.

The fund aims to help provide bereavement counsellors in maternity units in the UK.

The TV star and her husband are also parents to daughters Alexa, 14, and Hollie, eight.

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